{"id":16993,"date":"2021-04-27T07:49:25","date_gmt":"2021-04-27T14:49:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/rodbinder.com\/journal\/?p=16993"},"modified":"2021-04-27T16:08:27","modified_gmt":"2021-04-27T23:08:27","slug":"apr-27","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/rodbinder.com\/journal\/2021\/04\/27\/apr-27\/","title":{"rendered":"Apr 27 Cali’s Death"},"content":{"rendered":"

When my father died, I did not cry. When my cat died three days later, I cried a lot. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Alejandro Jodorowsky<\/strong><\/p>\n

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The big snowstorm didn’t really happen. It did get cold, windy with a frosting of snow, but that’s all. Today is another hard day. I am watching a close friend slowly waste away. Every time I look over to see if she has expired I feel pain. I think I figured it out. I want to remember her full of life, not slowly dying. She has been a good friend for over 20 years. Longer than should have been. They say the lifespan of a cat is 17 years. Cali has always been there for me. I remember watching her running through the field behind the house after mice or a piece of dandelion fluff floating in the wind. She was happy. That’s the way I want to remember my Cali.<\/p>\n

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Whose idea was it to shave off the beard? Oh yea I remember. I went out to gather wood had plans to chop the wet heavy monsters I sledgehammered out of the ground. Soaking 100 pound logs that were forced deep into the ground by the weight of 300 heavy 60 foot logs. Those haven’t seen daylight in a very long time.
\nI got them to the woodpile and realized the wind was freezing my face. I mean frostbite frozen flesh cold. I knew I would have to abandon the idea of splitting for now.<\/p>\n

I did own a face covering it was safe with my Bluetooth headphones and 12 pound splitting maul. Somewhere.<\/p>\n

As for Cali, she keeps hanging on, I hear a small moan, and then I see a leg move. I don’t know what keeps her going. I am just trying to keep her warm and as comfortable as I can. It must be awful to go through that. It is not much fun for me.<\/p>\n

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\nUpdate: Cali appeared to be gone, but when I touched her, her body moved I can only assume that her brain is still alive. I won’t try to move her until much later. She was a great cat.<\/p>\n

I am not sure what to do with her body. The ground will be frozen. She deserves a spot in the pet graveyard. Leaving her corpse outside is not an answer either, predators would just get her.<\/p>\n

Cali is gone.i pray that there is cat heaven and she is happy there. I will miss her.<\/p>\n