{"id":6935,"date":"2020-02-28T07:47:43","date_gmt":"2020-02-28T14:47:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/rodbinder.com\/journal\/?p=6935"},"modified":"2020-02-29T16:38:13","modified_gmt":"2020-02-29T23:38:13","slug":"feb-28","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/rodbinder.com\/journal\/2020\/02\/28\/feb-28\/","title":{"rendered":"Feb 28 I Dream"},"content":{"rendered":"

“If you can dream it, you can do it.”<\/strong><\/p>\n

Walt Disney<\/strong><\/p>\n

7:24 AM
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\nI woke with pain in my abdomen left side getting more intense, yesterday I found a big painful lump in my spine at the bottom of my C’s. The pain around the back of my elbows and wrist is also more intense.<\/p>\n

I have my morning coffee, been outside to snap a pic or 2,\u00a0 cats all fed and watered, so I can take a few minutes to type.<\/p>\n

I took a sick day yesterday. I did manage to do a sweeping of my office floor, that took hours and involved moving the couch and tipping it over to get underneath.<\/p>\n

I found the sock monsters stash and understood why so many socks had disappeared. In my defense my office space is small. I sleep on the couch most nights. On winter nights i sleep with socks on incase my feet stick out of the blankets on cold nights. I also hear a voice from my childhood days in one trip to a summercamp. Mr. Bosch who told us all never to go to sleep with oursocks on.<\/p>\n

I don’t why to this day it is important, just part of my childhood conditioning. So I remove my socks while I sleep. At sometime the end up on the floor. In the morning while I am struggling through the pain to make my body vertical and rush to that immediate need to urinate (old man thing I hear) the socks get pushed under the couch.<\/p>\n

This may not be an important discovery to you but it is for me. I keep buying more socks.<\/p>\n

This goes along with my tape measure collection, when I cant find one I buy another. When I don’t need one I find them and try to put them together.<\/p>\n

One day it’s my dream to have all the tape measures on a shelf, sadly for me it is just a dream.<\/p>\n

Like having every room in the house clean at the same time. Just not possible for me with my disabilities doesn’t stop me from trying. I just picked up the boards left over from the office roof reno and swept. The truth is just moved the mess to other places. The boards are in my shop on my table saw. The sawdust and dust monsters are in the fire room waiting for the fire to get going.<\/p>\n

The corridor is clean and the kitten raceway is open. They are doing full speed laps as I type and I am on my second cup, already exhausted. So much more to do, and not enough working body parts to get them done.<\/p>\n

Dust monsters, sawdust, dirt and anything else burnable is in the fire, pancake(s) are in the frying pan, was missing a few ingredients just adlibbed and stirred it together. It is cooking way too slow so I\u00a0 stopped watching it.<\/p>\n

My back is sore from the little work I did. I\u00a0 have to stop for a while. So much more needs doing, my kitchen my desk and now the fire room needs redoing. That’s the problem here. I have a hard time keeping ahead. Finish one room work on the others before I am done, the rooms I\u00a0 cleaned need redoing again.
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\nI ate my doughy giant pancake I got very sick. Something not right in my abdomen. More good news I have a big lump on the side of my neck, it’s hard not to imagine my body is riddled with something very bad.<\/p>\n