Why should anybody be interested in some old man who was a failure?

Ernest Hemingway

5:45 AM

Dizziness, tinnitus, lower back pain on my right side only. That dictates my day. I will be spending it on the computer, Xbox or in my bed. I won’t be working on the back deck right now. Maybe this afternoon, but I doubt it. Yesterday I mentioned that delays always happen especially as I am making progress.

I feel bad for Hemmingway in spite of his success he still left the planet in a very violent way. I just read about him on Wikipedia, he was in the Mayo clinic a few times for shock treatment, I understand a little better what he must have been going through. Suicide ran in his family. Mine too. I even attempted that once in a grand high-speed chase at a 140 mph. I lived but I still feel the pain from that crash every day.  My life was spared and I decided then that God wasn’t going to let me die in a suicide.

So I keep on keeping on. Even without proper coffee whitener. Hahaha. I have some arriving in a few days.

It looked like we may have had a slight frost last night a reminder that it will be fall here in a few days. The leaves will change, then the snow will fall. Then it won’t matter how broken I am I will have to go out every day and chainsaw and cut wood to stay warm. Hopefully, I will have had time to fill the water tank, I just managed to get inside. I still have to cut a big hole in the wall, move it into my old office and then insulate that room against the cold that will arrive in another month.

So why am I trying to build a back deck? That is where I set up my generator during the short days of winter. Not enough hours of sunlight to keep the solar batteries charged. I do have a wind generator I also need to get set up, that will help but I imagine only a little. I have dreams of setting up a Peltier bank on the woodstove to also create electricity. But I have far too many other things I need to accomplish before then.

Did I mention that coffee with almond milk tastes quite bad?


Now 7:45 AM


I did manage to go out late in the afternoon to feed the skeeters. While I was there I put up three more boards including the 16 footer.

I met Alannah Myles at an airport once. I saw her across the airport as if she was the only woman in the room, She was beautiful. I did manage to get an autograph and let her know that she had a little white powder under her nose I am sure it was just some coffee whitener :D. Just took a look at her picture as she looks today at 61 , she still looks good, I didn’t know she was almost my age.

3 song day what can I say I am stuck at my desk