Jul 18 Don’t Fear

What lies behind you and what lies in front of you, pales in comparison to what lies inside of you.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

7:30 AM
I don’t have the symptoms, no fever, no loss of taste or smell, no diarrhea. I coughed once two days ago and once this morning, sneezed once four days ago. COVID doesn’t fit but I have been staying home anyways. My symptoms started July 11. I will stay another 3 or 4 days to make sure no other symptoms appear. I am a little tired but I have been for a lot of years. It does feel like there is a forty-pound cat on my chest.

I am short of breath, I think because of the mass in my stomach pushing in on my diaphragm and lungs. They say they will go inside with a camera through my abdomen. A day surgery I hope.
I have already been for a gastro, and they found a small ulcer at the bottom of my esophagus. They say nothing in the CT scans, I don’t trust the technician that was on that day she was not pleasant, to say the least, I can here. I am still losing weight but gaining girth. I am down another 4 pounds. 204 this morning.

Enjoying the new phone camera. And I do like the name the A51 named after Area 51. The truth is out there hahahahaha. Buy it on Amazon don’t buy it from a carrier, one of them tried to force me to buy a data plan on top of the phone to get one final cost would have been over $1900 CDN. I already have a data plan, I didn’t need another. I bought it for $387 on Amazon unlocked. It arrived in Spanish but was easy to switch it to English.

Just did that job I like doing so much, amongst swarms of squitoes. 360 pounds of cat litter out to my old garden. I am putting them om the thistles that have taken over. Then its on to carrying a 40 lb pag of pellets funneling them into containers then into the litter boxes. Then put them back into place.
“Easy peasy” he said huffing and puffing.

Did a job I have been trying to do since spring. I stai ed the boards for the deck. I didn’t know if the stain was going to be okay, it was at least ten years old or older and had been frozen many times. The pigment mostly stuck to the bottom, the protective oils were floating on top that was what I need6. An hour out in the sun and the boards were coated. Some of the boards had rotten spots so I painted an extra one to be safe. I have enough stain in the can to do another coat. I would do that after they were cut to the right size.

I feel way over heated but my temp is only 36.4. I guess my cooling system is functioning.