We don’t develop courage by being happy every day. We develop it by surviving difficult times and challenging adversity.
Barbara De Angelis
i am having a multi day event with my lower back. this happened a few years ago. some kind of back spasm.
When it happened before, I tried in severe pain to roll off my bed. I got stuck between my bed and desk. i spent an hour stuck there in extreme pain. i finally got out and crawled down the stairs to my van. i tried to stand. that took anther hour.
I finally got the garage doors open,, the van started and was driving to he hospital. the local hospital was a waste of time so I drove to Spirit River hospital. Driving was doable sitting in the drivers seat didn’t cause pain. i knew getting out would.
i had visions of me crawling on the pavement from the parking lot to the hospital doors. it took another half hour but i made it there. After xrays and a lot more time i was given a prescription for a muscle relaxant.
four years later i am taking pills from that same bottle, hoping i can find relief. the first pill just putm to sleep. it is a few hours late i am on the second pill to see if that will help. i got down the stairs and made sure cats were fed and the fire started. it was an excruciating event, in extreme pain and some very slow walking it was done I am in bed and the pill swallowed, trying very hard not to move.
Even crossing and uncrosing my legs was painfull. Any movement sent searing pain to my lower back. My only hope of surviving wss not to move at all.
So I am sitting very still in bed binge watching Stargat SG1.
